Dealing with Disappointment

Hi ,

If you’ve been reading these newsletters or following me on social media, you may have seen that for the last couple of weeks I was promoting my 9 week course, Release & Root.

The course was supposed to start this past weekend and you know what I was doing at 10am PST during its inaugural session?

…..I was running lines with my brother who was in town for the weekend for the first time in 2 years to celebrate he and my dad’s birthdays.

You know what I wasn’t doing?

The course……..because I canceled it.

As the start of the course had gotten closer and closer, I noticed an energy shift.

The people who were interested had a lot of scheduling conflicts, I was experiencing a lack of flow and in general it was just beginning to feel very heavy and difficult (and not the good challenge) - more like pulling teeth.

When it was no longer feeling fun or pleasurable that’s when I knew I needed to pull the cord especially since 2 of my main theme words for the year (as discussed in my last newsletter) are pleasure and ease.

The reason I’m sharing this is because I think it’s really important not just as a creative entrepreneur but just as a human to share about accomplishments as well as creative deaths not as a place of pity but actually as a source of liberation and connection.

When we can be vulnerable about the things that didn’t work or currently are not working, we begin to release some of the shame we may be storing about why it didn’t work, why we aren’t enough, whose to blame, how we aren’t worthy and/or any of the other stories our brain likes to make up about us / the situation when we’re dealing with the pain and grief of a disappointment death.

I say death because that is what disappointment is, the death of an expectation of how we thought something (project, relationship, career, living situation) was supposed to play out.

On an energetic level, according to Dr. David Hawkins’ Map of Consciousness, shame is the lowest energetic vibration we can hold as humans so the more we can acknowledge it and move through it, the more access we have to other states such as creativity, joy, love, peace (you know….all those things we usually want).

Not only do we literally vibrate higher when we can release this shame, we also free up space to integrate important lessons and invite something better to come to us.

As we shift our emotional state, we shift what’s possible; we shift our reality.

For example, I realized that if something is feeling hard and it’s not flowing, I either need to reframe how I am approaching it or it’s actually not the thing that my energy should be going towards. It is definitely not a sign to just keep pushing harder and bulldoze through (hello, Moon in Taurus).

This perpetuates a cycle of burnout and ignoring my intuition.

I also realize that sharing about my disappointments with others creates greater intimacy, important dialogue and permission for others to release their own perfectionist tendencies or points of shame; or, at the very least to begin to question what may not be working / is being forced in their own life.

And the beauty of all of this was that on the other side of processing the disappointment, integrating the lessons and sharing with others, a new creative channel opened up and a completely new idea blossomed that is going to shift the direction of my work in a really exciting and soul aligned way.

, this is what happens when we can begin to process our disappointment and see it for the gift that it truly is: Life’s Great Course Correct; the Universal Reroute.

When we can stop fighting life and seeing the things that don’t work out or aren’t working out as something that’s happening *for* us instead of *to* us, we free up so much energy.

When we can surrender and stop trying to force and/or control everything, we surrender ourselves to the higher intelligence that is running our lives and actually knows what’s best for us (yes, even more than we do).

As Florence + The Machine so appropriately puts it: “I’m not giving up, I’m just giving in."

And if you need some extra help, check out this week's tapping video.